| | Has it really been that long since I've updated? I know it doesn't feel that long. I think perhaps because I tried to update the other day to no avail. My computer was stupid, but now it's smart again.
I want to be able to play the piano. It's such a pretty instrument. Almost all of the music I enjoy listening to has major piano pieces in them. I think I just find keys lovely. I love just typing away, even if it's about nothing in particular. I think that I would find the piano to be the same.
In a months time my world has been turned upside down. I have learned to survive [mainly] on my own, I have lost friends, I have gained friends, I have learned more about myself, I have become a solitary figure, I've learned to function on my own. It's weird to me how people can change so easily. Perhaps because I don't change that much myself. How can your feelings for something in particular be so fleeting? I don't understand it. I am a heart. A walking, talking heart. I wear my heart on my sleeve. To the people I bond with I'm loyal. I'm a loyal person in general, I was raised to be loyal to my family and have had that drilled into my head my entire life. That overflows to my friends as well. I want to be the best friend that I possibly can to all of my friends, even if they aren't my best friend. Everyone has flaws, everyone fails in some area. I know I'm bitchy and vindictive at times, but who isn't? I react out of emotion, not calculated thinking. But as it is, not everyone is focused on being the best friend that they can be. In reality most people don't care at all.
So in that I'm utterly lost and confused. If you say you're going to do something, or be a certain way, then by all means be that way. Be up front with me, don't say you're going to be one way and then act a completely different way. If you have my loyalty or confidence, it'll stay that way until you've committed some heinous crime and I can never look you in the eyes again. I am not a fleeting person, it's as simple as that. I don't have fleeting whims of when I want something, and then a few moments later couldn't care less if I had it or not. I dislike such things.
I went to Savannah yesterday. It was divine. It wasn't what I expected, but I wouldn't change it if I could (Except perhaps giving us all a little more sleep and making the water a few degrees warmer.) I had a good, relaxing time. Danielle and I usually have intensely crazy times when we're together, regardless of what we're doing. She must be trouble and I must be adventure(Or is it the other way around?); mix the two and beware of the chemical reaction it causes. So yesterday was a change from the norm. We did do some interesting things; eating at those little tables was one of my favorites.
Forgive my rambling post, I just wanted to type. =] |
| | Posted 4/24/2007 1:01 AM - 29 Views - 2 eProps - 1 Comment
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